“He was the love of my life,” actress Amber Heard assured Wednesday, describing Johnny Depp as a man blinded by jealousy and made violent by drugs and alcohol, during the defamation lawsuit brought by his ex-spouse in US court. “I struggle to find the words to describe how painful, awful it is for me to sit here and go through it all again,” she said at the start of her testimony in court in Fairfax, near Washington. actress, dressed in a dark three-piece suit over a white-striped blue shirt and wearing light makeup, later recounted the “chemistry” of meeting an “intimidating” actor twice her age in 2009, shared literary tastes and the start of a hidden affair, as Johnny Depp was in a relationship with French actress Vanessa Paradis at the time. the effect of drugs and alcohol alternate with episodes of sobriety, according to the actress. “He was the love of my life but he was also this other horrible thing,” she said. “He grabbed me by the hair, by the arm, by the face, he shouted at me. He broke things near me then he hit me, it started with repeated slaps” before she pushes him away, a- she said, close to tears. The actor then disappeared for a time, “then he came back [disant] that he was done with drugs and alcohol for good”. But he quickly fell back into his addictions. she pointed out, explaining that “Johnny on amphetamine [était] very different from Johnny on opiates” and that “drinking was correlated with violence”. to stay.”I didn’t want to leave him, I wanted him to get better,” she said, before recounting with emotion several other incidents and fits of jealousy.Her testimony, which will continue on Thursday, was very expected on the fourteenth day of this ultra-publicized trial broadcast live on television and on social networks. 58-year-old Johnny Depp claims that his ex-wife ruined his reputation and his career after writing an editorial in the Washington Post, in which she claimed to have been the victim of domestic violence in 2016, without quoting her ex-husband, claiming $ 50 million in damages, which correspond to her loss of income after being dismissed The 36-year-old actress, who starred in Hollywood blockbusters Justice League and Aquaman, has fought back and is seeking $100 million. She claims to have been subjected to “physical abuse and assault” since their first meeting and during their tumultuous marriage which lasted only two years, from 2015 to 2017. The actor, who testified for four days in late April, denies having never raised a hand on Amber Heard, assuring that it was she who was violent. He admitted to a heavy consumption of drugs and alcohol, which he claimed to control most of the time. A sign of the toxicity of their marriage, he explained in particular that they had, each on their own, got into the habit of record their altercations, many recordings of which have been released since the start of the trial. In one of them, used by the actor’s lawyers, we hear Amber Heard claim that no one would believe him if he said publicly that he was beaten by his wife. In May 2016, Amber Heard had continued his husband on trial for domestic violence before dropping these charges during divorce proceedings. In April 2018, the British tabloid The Sun accused Johnny Depp of being “an abusive husband”. The actor sued the newspaper and lost two years later in a trial that exposed his drug and alcohol abuse.